a sweetlove ,for the wicked

1st Jun 2013

Waking up

Realizing , treading water is a workout, being on my own is a task , moving up is there but seems so distant . Hard work eventually pays off and I’m learning how to be patient , which is okay , but anyone who knows me patient isn’t in my vocabulary ! I do what I want when I want how I want I try to be fair and what not but that’s what I’m waking up to my non patient assistant making decisions that are affecting my future , if I was willing to wait , and see what this all could be . Learning that being alone without friends family or a significant other , is hard but it’s doable waking up to reality everyday is hard but I can and will do it I have faith I can I hope you dolls do too

Xox
Vas

31st May 2013

HER

I can’t stand her , that girl you know he thinks about the girl he used to love the girl that once had HIM , but let me tell you , her life is something that was , I’m the thing that’s now , but I’m NOT around so where does that leave me ? Living my fucking life fuck him fuck her and let me live

Xox
Chelle

20th May 2013

my letter K

so overall things have been crazy in my life with people coming and going and just overall people causing DRAMA , the only drama i like is Rob Dyrdeks cousin, any who lately ive been really happy with where i am at , i recently moved out of Carmellas but even before then it was my parents, ive been on my own for a little while but i love it. i recently took up the practice of spontinaity and it is FUN , i got on a plane and went to Vegas, for how long pretty much 24 hours , do i regret it not at all. it was good company and thats what i have been lacking in my life for sometime, regardless where this friendship goes , it was fun refreshing and something i can cherish for life. heck i even got to go on a date to pretty much any ~~fat~~ girl who is in love with Andy Richman i got to go to Hot N Juicy Crawfish whaaaat , nom nom , honestly i told everyone about how the other one made me feel but this new one , my letter K , hands down has nothing on the other one, i might be a rebound i might not be forever but i dont care cause im living in the right now, im living for the ME, & right now the letter K is what is fresh and fun, i like how its going , regardless of distance or whatever someone who truly appreciates who i am & my natural beauty (even when i dont see it) is worth that trial effort. like i said im not looking for marriage or a relationship but I’m liking the feeling of someone actually caring for me & ABOUT me , the “good morning beautiful” texts the “hows your day” , thats the shit , so im so beyond happy in my life right now just cause for once i don’t feel like everyone is out to get me but i actually have some good people on my side,